WHAT YOU CAN DO....
There is a beginning to all things. And, the beginning for me was a book called The Power of Now that I read about 6 years ago, or whenever it came out... I remember practicing the techniques given to aid in drawing oneself in the the now moment. I remember pulling off the road and sitting there, intensly focusing my attention on removing myself and becoming the observer of my emotional state/reaction to my own thoughts. I remember an intense desire of needing to Know things. Wanting to accept all, but struggling with my own views of how things work, and my empathic reactions to feelings of others and myself.
Many years later I can laugh at myself. Not to trivialize the experience, but rather to honor my growth since.