Help me help myself feel the warmth of sun, feel the cool night breeze, smell the fragrance of the forest. Help me see the light that shines so brightly upon me and the shadows that linger on so tightly. Is it because I question everything that my experience is never 100% involved? How can I let go of all my worries, when in this world we live in requires you to be responsible? Help me find a way from the physical to the spiritual...from the head to the heart...from the heart to the being..from the earth to the universe.
Gosh...it seems like I know all of this...but somehow... I just can't get a grip on it. I feel that I'm ready...but I also feel insecure and frightened with how much LIGHT is out there. I guess because the darkness is lights polar..and it can not exist without it, warns me that life is always balanced. That I will have LOVE..but I will also see and taste hate. I see it in other people... even in jealousy...hate is it's foundation. I tell myself...that I need to follow my heart...because that is the purest and most authentic feeling within you, the mind thinks your happy... but the heart knows definitely. So... I ask for advice because I know I need it. Help me see and feel. Than again.... I came to understand that NO one can "really" help me. It is I who needs to do it.