Brush away the negative emotions, the negative patterns and ruts you find yourself in. They are like parasites trying to live on your own energy. Imagine them as trivial, small insects crawling on your shoulder. That is what they are. They are nothing in comparison to who you are in God, to the power of your spirit, to the measure of the grace God and the Holy Ones are extending to you. You are One with God.
Remind yourself of that again and again. No matter where you find yourself, simply begin again. Brush the insect of the negative away, time and again, as the nuisance it is. Then focus on the real, positive vibrations of your mind. God is within you. You have infinite light and Divine grace available to you.
Gradually you will grow out of all conflicts and confusion. The muddle has not come one fine morning. There is a cause to this effect. There have been such thoughts and practices for many, many years in the past. Accept that human reality. But if you are determined today to change it, if you practice every day to change it, you are assured by all the sages, by all the Enlightened Ones, that yes, by practice, you can alter this. You can reverse the process. If your practice was emotionally negative then, yes, your determination to be positive can take you back to the positive within you.