adam has not received any gifts yet
ive talked before about how i didnt chase after the soccer ball when i was a kid. they told me what to do, but when they blew the whistle to start i watched and couldnt figure out why i would want to chase after the ball with them. there was a thinking process at 8 that i can still remember. i remember feeling like something was wrong, but it was the way it looked to the parents. my mom thought that there was something wrong with me, and told me about it later in life. it turns out that there was something right with me, and she just didnt know about people like me.
people were into wrestling in the towns i grew up in. some towns like football, some basketball. its what ever that shool won the state championship becomes what they like. that town won at wrestling, so they got all the kids to wrestle. my older sisters made it look cool to me, and one of the boys their age started to give free wrestling lessons, so i started to do it when i was about 10 or 11. i remember beating people in practice every single time, but in the meet i would let them beat me for some reason. i couldnt get myself to fight them at all. i remember being really confused about that. im learning that i wouldnt out do people because they would never be able to out do it. im learning that i can "out do it."
the more that i got abused in life the more i started to out do people. i got good at skateboarding and liked to show off. i always wanted people to see me do it. i was addicted to the way it felt to hypnotize them. then i did it again with dancing. i was never the best at either, but i was able to mezmerize a lot of people with it. i think i liked these activities because i did them alone, and showed people how to get into their own thing. there was an innate drive to show people that i could do it that basically took over my whole existence.
now im learning that my psychic ability is more impressive than the best skateboarders on this planet. the things im going to be doing are going to mezmerize this world more than i ever thought that i would ever do. i dont know what that means for me yet, but i have a knew life as a spiritual master after being made to feel like there was something wrong with me my whole life by almost everybody ive known.