I have always questioned my existence... my purpose... my reason of being. Some days... I go along with the natural current...other days...I just simply question too much- Almost to the point that I become paranoid with being alive... feeling that something is wrong and evil... that we are cursed. How can life be given to us with no explanation and then be taken away just as harshly??? I think of so many philosophical matters in which my religious, political, environmental matters become fictional. Perhaps I lived a life before that is now paying it's final dues. That PAIN is suffering and LOVE is blissful. True HELL is the exchange of emotions swinging left and right... striking you at your weakest point and fooling you at your strongest. Testing every thought that is imagined in your mind... playing tricks with your reality. Perhaps that is why people say..." This is hell"- makes a lot of sense in my perspective.
I can't imagine what would life be without confusion. What would life be without division if one has not yet been divided? -(How can there be evil without good?)- how would you identify one without the other? It almost seems as though one can not exist without "yin and yang"- the opposites that bring forth a new purpose... a new character into light.
I feel the same with each individual and each set of characteristics we all share. We ALL belong to this one race of UNKNOWN PURPOSE... why cant we ALL see past this?- And if we have... what will that bring to us??? Will it crack the code of human existence--- will GOD come from the heavens and say..." Finally... you have nailed it!... you have all been granted an explanation!" Or beings of another planet come forth and explain our genetic mutation? Who knows? May whatever is out there reach to us in a universal way... please do not scare us (me).