I have often wondered what I can or should do. Just watching everything that is going on in the world often made me feel a bit depressed or angry. I took me some time to look at things in a more nondual way. This changed everything but it did not relieve me of the feeling that I wanted to do something in the world. Trying lots of things had made me become aware that I was often busy with parts of myself and not really exercising a visible or felt influence upon the world. What I then started to recognize was an underlying fear to truly exercise power and influence. Of the two insightful reasons for this fear the first is actually very easily recognisable. Power in our modern day world is, more often than not, corrupted and misused for personal/egoistic objectives. It is therefore hard to find examples, or let alone a frame of reference, for the just and ethical use of power. The second reason has to do with ancient, but very relevant, imprints upon our collective subconscious caused by the misuse of power that we once exercised ourselves in earlier incarnations on this planet. This second reason might seem far out for someone unfamiliar with the dilemma of the correct use of power. This unfamiliarity could ofcourse very well be due to the fact that person has no longer (shared) history on this planet or is simply unconscious of this possibility. On the other hand we do not need full knowledge, if this were even possible, about this past because a discerning and investigative mind can trigger the awareness of such a possibility within us. Reasonable and scientifically backed voices subscribing to such a view on our history are rapidly growing in number and can definitely no longer be overjumped without sincere and honest investigation.
I believe we are learning on a global scale to exercise power and leadership in a consctructive, lucid and positive way. Now that it is getting clear to the masses that our leaders are often not sincerely interested in the well-being of all their capabilities and motives are openly questioned. And for very good reasons indeed. We will have to look at other other leaders to get an idea of realistic power and leadership. I have found some examples that surely help me to develop a healthy sense of power. Whether there are still subconscious or unconscious currents influencing my road to a balanced use of my power I do not know. I do know that I keep learning every day and that this is the best I can do. It might just be so that there lies great power in the understanding that we have a choice. Once we can feel that we do not have to look to distorted examples we already free ourselves from a unnatural, and finally impossible, idea. To know what we do not want is something to be very happy with. Once I accepted this knowing as something valid more and more space was created in my awareness for something different that I had not previously been able to see. So just relax and let it develop.